MatthewHuttle
- Sep 18, 2020
- 4 min read

27f - Atonement With the Father - Someplace I Have Never Been

Visionary inventor Buckminster Fuller said, “You never change things by fighting against the existing reality. To change something, build a new model that makes the old model obsolete.” In the face of the continued chaos in the world today, especially against a seemingly unending communist invasion, my instincts are to fight. My Shadow Warrior looks to secure its place as the uncompromising “defender of truth”, holding the line in the struggle to save America from the throngs of sissified, commie crybabies. He delights in offending the delicate sensibilities of those that succumb to Slave Morality. He is callous, calculating, and rational; traits that are highly valued in the growing “free-speech movement” which is seeing a swell in its ranks by average Americans – mostly conservative, but plenty of moderates – who are tired of the blatant political bias and unapologetic censorship that is the current rule on most social media platforms today. The shadow banning, and in some cases outright banning, of anyone who doesn’t bow to current orthodoxy by the intellectual gatekeepers of Silicon Valley has caused many to migrate to platforms such as Parler, Minds, and BitChute. This of course only serves to make the rapid balkanization of our society even WORSE, but that’s what my Shadow Warrior wants, and I’m sure that if I let him, he could find a place on these emergent platforms and quite possibly rise in popularity there, but I know that that’s not going to solve anything.

For all of my talk about doing the hard work in order to live a better life, I would be a hypocrite if I didn’t do the same. It’s very hard to bite my tongue when someone spouts talking points that I know are incorrect, incongruent, dishonest, and destructive. It’s very hard to be sympathetic when someone is acting down to less than what I know they can be. It’s very hard to give someone the benefit of the doubt when I know I wouldn’t get the same consideration in return. Of course, doing what’s right isn’t supposed to be easy, because if it’s easy, then it probably isn’t right.

It’s easy to say “this group of young idiots is being duped, and I’m not because I’m so smart.” The truth is that the pink-haired harpies screeching about “diversity” and “fragility” today, aren’t really that different than mullet-headed yokels hollering, “If you’re not with us, then you’re with the terrorists” back in the early 2000’s. If anything, one is a reaction to the other, which in turn is a reaction to the other, which is…well, you get the point. It’s easy to label your ideological opponent as a “Nazi” or a “Libtard” because it invalidates them among your tribe, and you no longer have to engage with them; you can just stick to your own group, and pat each other on the back for being so “good” or “smart”. What’s more, I know that everything going on in the world around me right now is serving to force me to grow within, and I’m all for it.

The great psychologist and philosopher Carl Jung said, “One does not become enlightened by imagining figures of light, but by making the darkness conscious.” In other words, it is easy for me to see my Shadow Warrior as an opponent, but I must remember that the purpose of this stage of the monomyth is not to erase misbehaving part of myself, but to INTEGRATE with it and make it part of me, instead of allowing it to run in the back of my head like some errant computer program, causing errors in my behavior. It’s clear that the world isn’t going to make this process any easier. External forces are going to continue to give my Shadow Warrior ammunition to use against my emotional mind, by giving my rational mind plenty of reason to jump into the ideological fray and slide back into old, tribal impulses. It’s up to me to remember that such action is little more than petty squabbling, which is not only counter-productive and adds more negativity to the world, it’s just as antithetical to the warrior ethic as giving in to Slave Morality. In other words, it’s not just about keeping myself from adding to all the negativity, it’s about contributing positivity.

Like Stories of Old brilliantly summarized what a true warrior is when he said, “Warriors change their worlds by asserting their will upon them.” He reminds us that this isn’t done through violence alone, but also through non-violent means as well. The warrior archetype can be embodied by journalists, scientists, politicians, and everyday people who rise up against great odds to face down a challenge and make their world better through positive action. For me, personally, the real challenge isn’t in rising up to do better, it’s in rising up to be better.

As I have continued to struggle with my old impulses, my good friend and acupuncturist, Andrea – the Goddess on this round of my journey – has been helping me to release the old, stagnant, immature energy that’s trapped in my soul. In the midst of perforating my corpse with needles I’ve been talking through things with her. It was she who helped me realize that the message I received from the gods in my car accident wasn’t actually “stop”, but rather it was “stay”. This may seem to be a semantical difference, but it isn’t. To stop is to cease movement, but to stay is the act of deliberately holding oneself in place. It's one thing to keep from moving toward ideological extremes, something I got better with in the last round, but it’s quite another to actively hold yourself still, at one specific point; and not just any point, but the middle – someplace that I have never been.

Andrea Cillo:

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Like Stories of Old – The Archetype of the Warrior:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UlKuE7jm0WM&t=230s